I started off this year giving myself time to ponder what I might like my focus to be for 2013. Since the end of the Mayan calendar did not result in the end of times, I realized I should probably set some goals for myself.
I watched the blog word roll out their words for the year and I had a hard time figuring out what word was for me. So, my blog fell silent.
I found myself in a blogging rut these last couple of weeks because I didn’t know what my new year focus would be. And then, it came to me…
I can’t move forward if I don’t take a step…and I started to realize that all the words I had running through my mind all had one thing in common, and that was a renewed focus on getting life back to a sense of balance and order. Getting life back to a less chaotic place.
I haven’t shared it much here, but since the twins were born, I have been overwhelmed more often than not and it came to head over the last year and I came to the realization that I truly lost a part of myself. I was so consumed by them and just staying afloat… as is usually the case with small children. But, until recently, I didn’t realize just how much I had let go around me by just merely keeping my head above water.
SO, this year is my year to get my act back together because I feel more at peace when my life has more symmetry and balance. And while I realize that balance can be elusive, I believe there is merit in making some small changes to feel like I’m taking care of myself and the things that are most important to me. I am officially RENEWING my focus on what’s important in 2013.
I plan to…
RENEW focus on my overall health – I haven’t had a check-up in about 18 months…I know…unsat my friends – I’ve become the person who let’s it all go in favor of all other things. That’s changing today – I’ve made my appointments. Ok, I’m making them as soon as I hit publish on this post…
RENEW focus on my personal and creative interests , I can’t do it all, there are just too many things I would love to do creatively and personally, but I plan to get back to reading more books that bring entertainment and personal growth. I also plan to preserve memories because it is so important to me – even if it’s just to blog regularly and share our family here.
Speaking of, I plan to RENEW focus on this space…my blog… my little corner in the world where I get to connect with my online friends. I realized this year as I glanced at my refrigerator of holiday cards, that a third of them were from online friends and co-workers. You know what that told me? It was tangible evidence that the relationships I have cultivated in this space are real and SO important. You all care and are connected to me and dropping off into oblivion would be a major loss in my life. I would lose all of you and my girls would lose this space where their mom is journaling and sharing her thoughts on the world.
It’s time to RENEW focus on my girls and really tune into them when they are in front of me. Sometimes I see them, but I’m not really “seeing” them. I’ve already started on this goal, but I will continue to keep it on the forefront.
2013 is also a time for me to RENEW focus on my relationships with those closest to me – my husband, my grandparents, family and friends. I’ve been so lost in a daze of toddler-twindom that I have lost focus on those who are important to me. It’s time to creep my way back into being good to those who I love and who love me most.
Finally, in 2013, I plan to RENEW my focus on the positive – because while life can be tough, there are so many gifts and lovely things happening around me each day.
I’m sure this list will evolve over the year, and I’m sure that there will be days I will be an epic failure at making my goals work for me. But, each day is a new opportunity to refocus and renew my drive for improvement.
What word would you pick for this year? Did you write a post talking about it? If so, please share it with me, I’d love to read it.